The Gifts of Surrendering
When I started blogging in 2009, one of my biggest fears was being perceived as imperfect. Growing up, I was the ‘goody two-shoes’ who made straight As, didn’t drink, smoke, or use drugs, and was saving myself for marriage. As a doctor, I felt a great deal of pressure to be perfect in the hospital; otherwise, innocent people might die. I had started withholding the truth about who I really was or even telling little white lies to paint a picture of myself that was more ‘perfect‘ than I really was, and it left me feeling isolated, lonely, and hypocritical, as people tended to believe the picture. I lived in constant fear of being ‘found out,’ and the shame of the lie I was living paralyzed me and damaged my relationships.
Caring for others—and being cared for—creates resilience.
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