How do you stay positive when surrounded by death and dying?
PUBLISHED July 09, 2018
A native New Yorker, Shira Kallus Zwebner is a communications consultant and writer living with her husband and three children in Jerusalem, Israel. Diagnosed in 2017 with diffuse large B-cell lymphoma, she's fighting her cancer battle and blogging about the journey at hipstermomblog.com
I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I feel like I'm surrounded by death and dying, as the news of my cancer friends losing their battles filters through to me in my post-cancer life. This morning, I just wanted to stay in bed, pull the covers over my head and sleep.
But it's impossible. Depression for me doesn't manifest itself that way, I've never been able to just sleep away my grief.
"I want a Mommy break today," I tell my husband.
But a Mommy break means I still needed to reassure my daughter as she had an, "I hate all my clothing" meltdown while brushing her hair, applied sunscreen to my eldest while reminding her to take her cell phone and drink lots of water at camp, and held the zoo map for my son as he described in detail his camp trip to see the monkeys, flamingos and kangaroos.
But it's impossible. Depression for me doesn't manifest itself that way, I've never been able to just sleep away my grief.
"I want a Mommy break today," I tell my husband.
But a Mommy break means I still needed to reassure my daughter as she had an, "I hate all my clothing" meltdown while brushing her hair, applied sunscreen to my eldest while reminding her to take her cell phone and drink lots of water at camp, and held the zoo map for my son as he described in detail his camp trip to see the monkeys, flamingos and kangaroos.
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