Survivor: Breast Cancer
I’m a newlywed, a social worker, and a wine lover. I currently live in Texas with my husband (Nick, AKA Husbae) and our dog, Wedge Antilles.
Guilt. It took awhile for me to be able to come up with a word that really described how I was feeling but once I did, it felt like everything became a little bit clearer. Guilt isn’t always a negative thing. In some circumstances guilt can make us partake in self examination and can fuel self improvement. I have read a lot about survivor's guilt and parental guilt in particular. I happened upon these while I was searching for "cancer guilt" - not guilt after you survive but the guilt that becomes your companion the day you’re diagnosed.
When I was searching for ways to combat the mental effects my cancer has had on me, I couldn’t find much on this topic, which was frustrating. My internal guilt manifests itself in small outbursts, tears, and bouts of anxiety and depression, all side effects that unfortunately impact those around me. I am tired of these feelings towards myself taking a toll on others.
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